twenty ten.. wonderful times.. at the end :)

On 22^nd December, 9:20pm, I hurriedly started from office to lingampalli railway station as I don't wanted to miss 9:40 train. I was in time, but the train made me to wait. I was so tired that day, couldn't even reply to cell messages and felt like sleeping immediately. I have this habit of getting frustrated when something keeps me waiting. Every time, when this frustration hits me, I just go back to my past times to live the present. That day, in my thoughts, I just wondered about my wonderful times in 2010. The thought suggested me to write a blog..and it goes this way..

January 19^th, at the end of the day, I joined pinku and co (this is how I write in my diary :P) at KPHB. We had been to airport for Vinush's sendoff. From airport, we started to Ravi Teja's hostel as that day was his birthday. We reached hostel after 12 without any cake. We atleast thought of having an ice cream in that cold weather. So we started walking towards the main road expecting a Kwality Wall's light near by. I still remember, during our walk, we saw two people on a motorbike coming towards us. We couldn't see any part of their face as they covered it totally to protect themselves from cold weather and they were also holding a gun. As they came even nearer, I couldn't control myself and spelled “evarra veellu.. terrorists la??”. Immediately, yash shouted “melliga bey.. police lu..”. I stood mouth opened. Wonderful time :)

March 3^rd, in the afternoon, I was sleeping when I received a call from Sneha. As soon as my “Hello”, I heard “Saakiii.. humara joining date aagaya..”. For a moment, I felt “huff.. the wait ended finally..”. We had a 2 minute happy talk about joining date, training location, etc. Later, I shared the news with mom showing her my joining letter. Wonderful time :)

August 13^th, 11:30pm, I was feeling sleepy, and even my mom was ordering me to sleep as the next day morning I had a plan of going to village for my friend's wedding. At that very moment, I got a call from an unknown number. Though I was not interested in taking the call, I lifted it sensing it as an important call. As soon as I lifted, I got to know that it was Harsha, and I asked him “what's the matter?”. He said “I'll be there in 20 minutes, Don't sleep, I have a small work..”. In that 20minutes break, I just sat wondering what this idiot gonna say. He reached my place very soon and I got a “Come out” call as usual. When I'm getting down stairs, I could see him and I kept on asking him “what happened??”. Reached him, he said “nothing, come this way”, and he made me to walk a bit where I saw another Btech friend Vivek who came from UK all of a sudden. I was totally shocked with his visit. Within no time, I started with them to roam all the night. My sleep disappeared. It should disappear. We reached Gachibowli DLF building, and we had a hot masala dosa followed by a cup of tea. Wonderful time :)

November 5^th, at around 1pm in the afternoon, I was in auto with my friend. I got a call from venky which I was expecting as that day was his birthday. He asked me “Did you like it?”. I said “What?”. He then asked me whether Vivek met me the day before. I said No. Then he said “I have sent you a black Jacket with vivek as it is winter. I asked him to give you today. I think he has forgot. Call him and ask for it”. Happy call. Wonderful Time :)

Cjay.. this is how I address my friend Chitra Jadhav. Many days ago, she once messaged me “birthday surprises are special and sweet. I feel everyone deserves a nice birthday. Happy times..”. The day before her birthday, I felt she expects a gift from me. So that will not be a surprise. So that day, I somehow managed to get a permission to leave office at 5pm, and I started to Sainikpuri with google map route running in my mind. I lost my way in old bowenpally and I could say nothing other than “Google maps cheated me”. I started trails to find my way, and to my surprise, the second person whom I have met wanted to go to same place and he asked me whether I can drop him. During our journey, I seriously felt as if God is sitting with me that day. However, I dropped him at his point and I reached her place. Called her mom. Met her. Gave her the gifts. I told her what to do :P. I started back within very less time. Stopped my bike by the side of the road. Gave a reply to Cjay's one hour back “Whats up?” message as “I was busy with work, didn't see your message”. Everything went fine. After two days, she was into a situation to reveal the truth. She said “Saaki.. that day, I got a call from my mom as soon as you called her. Hmmm.. But the 2^nd gift was a real surprise”. I stood speechless. Kept on smiling by imagining her thought process when she read my reply that day. Wonderful time :). I felt innocent aunt did not trust me :P, or else it would not have been my wonderful time :)

There are many more wonderful times to describe. My first salary, my first birthday treat, receiving sachin autograph logo T-Shirt from yash's mom, 'Hello Hug' exchanges with Ramki after 7 years, cellphone gift to my sister on Rakhi, small gift from my new friend, 5 friends telephonic conference, Harry's visit, with pinku @airport.. and at the end, the time when I got a thought of putting down my wonderful times of twenty ten is also a wonderful time :)

happyness is everywhere..

Few months ago, on a fine moody day, one question stroked my mind. “What makes a person to be happy very often?” Unlike other questions, this question even started traveling in my mind as I couldn't satisfy myself with an answer initially. I triggered my search for an answer..

A kid back home from school. He need to complete his homework, but he saw his friends playing. His heart says “go and play”, his mom says “play after work”. According to Disappointing Act, any kid need to follow his mom, so he concentrates on his work maintaining the same sad look through out his working time. But the moment he is done with his work, he feels very happy and even forgets his time. Happiness indescribable.

Recently, I had a visit to a temple with my friends where we met a kid who was selling water bottles. The kid sat with us requesting to buy one bottle. We asked him how much do you get for one bottle. He replied '1 rupee'. Anyways, we didn't buy and he left us. After sometime, the kid ran towards us holding a 20 rupee note in his hand with a million dollar smile on his face. In fact, he didn't run towards us but his intention was to show that he finally sold out one which fetches him one rupee profit. An indescribable one rupee Happiness.

I questioned myself, how they are able to absorb happiness from little things? And why are we not? Because as we grow, we ignore the word 'little'. We start feeling the air of tensions. Comparisons begin. We don't get satisfied easily. We care ego. High expectations. And the list goes on. All these attributes play a key role in strengthening a person. But they also become very handy in killing happiness.

A person gets good rank in an examination. But he is not happy because someone else got better rank than him. The value of his good rank is nowhere existing because of his ego. In my sense, Ego should be expressed when a person has chance to show his abilities, but not after the result. If latter is the case, then no doubt ego is a happiness killer.

Recently, after entering into TCS, I saw many people wishing for a project allocation very soon. After project allocation, they need PC immediately. Later, they need work. In the end, they may not like the work. I doubt when actually a person gets satisfied with the things. I asked the same to one of my friend, the reply was “why should I get compromised in every step?” A very valid reply, Right? But I can just say “life is not a promissory note..”. You need to compromise sometimes. If you want satisfaction in every thing, no doubt it is a happiness killer.

An expectation to certain level is always good and I feel that as confidence. But over expectations are the source for disappointments and that in turn kills happiness.

When I joined Btech, I just felt, a good job will keep me happy. Now I got a job, I'm happy. But when someone talks about cracking CAT, when someone talks about GMAT, when someone talks about onsite, I feel there are many other great things than job. It is true. But what about my job happiness?? Very simple, my comparisons locked my happiness. I couldn't find any happiness in my job until I read the quote..“Never compare yourself to others.. you never know what their journey is all about..”. It is so true for a person like me :). What I mean is never plan your growth by comparing with others. “You grow in your own unique way”.

Most of us hold above pointed attributes. Try not to give a chance to these things to control your happiness. Let's see what life has planned for you. Remember, happyness should not be the end, it should accompany you through out your journey. Enjoy the tiny precious happy moments which life shoots at you. There are many little incidents which we generally ignore. Happyness is everywhere, it should be there in your eyes to see it, to feel, and to cherish. Laugh out loud. Plan surprises. Love your relations. Celebrate someone's victory. Use facebook :P. Oh.. I'm getting emotional. I think I should end now..!!

P.S: I couldn't find a common name to ego, satisfaction, expectations, comparisons, etc. So I just named them as attributes ;)